I feel all cast about lately, a little lost I guess. Before Kate's wedding I had all kinds of direction, doing things for that. And after I was busy doing all the things I had neglected. Now I'm working for Amnesty -- helped put together a newsletter and a survey, and have 2 quilts to complete for our prisoners. I go to an Arlington Schools sub orientation tomorrow, and after that I'll be all set to start working. I guess there will be lots of choices about when to work, which schools, etc. I think I might get a little more focused if I start to work a few days a week.

For example, I have my whole day free today. When I was working, I could only dream of such a day. And what should I do with this day? Clean? Cleaning is always there, but should I do it? Bake bread? Yes, always a good idea. Do some ironing? Yes, that's always there too. I have the luxury of asking, what would be good for my soul today, what would be good for my family. I feel that I need to do good this day, but I'm frozen by all the choices. I'm also so grateful for all the choices -- not many people get to live this way. It's also a pretty day outside -- jeans and sweatshirt weather -- and I must take that into account because beautiful days have to be acknowledged.

I'm definitely not bored -- I'm amazed by all that life offers and that I'm in a position to experience. I'm totally amazed by the lack of stress in my life -- just about nothing can stress me at the moment. So I think that shows that stress wasn't inherent to me -- because I can see that you could create stress from anything; but I don't - -stress to me was work, and without it, the stress has gone. Everyone should be so fortunate:-)